Well it's been another week and I'm still walking... It feels so good to get out there and do this for me. The boys have faded away walking every night made Phil's knee swell up to double the normal size so he has stopped. Damien comes sometimes still but he is not really into it. This is the normal pattern I fall into. I get started then after a week or two I stop. so i must stay motivated and keep up with this routine. I keep telling myself that it does not take that much to get out there and walk and missing a couple tv shows has not killed me. Although in the beginning that was a reason i wouldn't walk before.
So my second goal to read every night before i go to sleep has proved to be the hard one to follow through with. I have been reading but it was only like 3 nights last week, it's more than i was doing so it's a start. I am going to try and get up to reading every night but at least a couple nights a week is helping.
Now on to my next goal.... I need to drink more water.... well anything for that matter, I sit at my desk all day and do not even drink a cup of water.. I know that is so bad for me i should be drinking all day long. I have a 32oz water bottle that i brought to work, My goal is to make sure that I drink at least one of those full everyday. I know that i am not staying hydrated enough cause when i get home i cannot get enough to drink but then i have to get up an pee at night cause i drank to much before bed. lol. So this is my little update until next time I'll be Discovering Me!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
It's only Tuesday
Well If I didn't feel like I was stressed before I do now!! Some things happened at work so I am now doing the work from my old position as well as the work from my new one. AHHHHH is all I can say. Just breathe is what I keep telling myself, I can only hope and pray that this is a very short term thing or i might lose my mind......
On the other hand my nightly walking is going great, I stepped up the speed and once again my legs are burning and I was winded but I feel great. When I'm out there walking I wonder why it took me so long to finally start doing this. For as long as I can remember that little voice has been telling me you need to walk at least so you can get healthier but I always had some reason why I could not... and now it's like part of the nightly routine, i get home, we have dinner, rest, and then we go for our walk there is no excuses we just go. It's funny I thought I was going to be walking alone but the boys come with me everynight, Although Damien asked tonight if we have to go everynight I told he does not have to but I am. Then later this evening Phil starts talking about how bad his knee has been hurting him, i told him as well that he does not have to go but he says he likes to go cause he wants to be there for me. Aww what a sweet guy! well it's getting late an the walking is going good the reading has yet to happen, so here I go. And until next time I'll be Discovering Me!
On the other hand my nightly walking is going great, I stepped up the speed and once again my legs are burning and I was winded but I feel great. When I'm out there walking I wonder why it took me so long to finally start doing this. For as long as I can remember that little voice has been telling me you need to walk at least so you can get healthier but I always had some reason why I could not... and now it's like part of the nightly routine, i get home, we have dinner, rest, and then we go for our walk there is no excuses we just go. It's funny I thought I was going to be walking alone but the boys come with me everynight, Although Damien asked tonight if we have to go everynight I told he does not have to but I am. Then later this evening Phil starts talking about how bad his knee has been hurting him, i told him as well that he does not have to go but he says he likes to go cause he wants to be there for me. Aww what a sweet guy! well it's getting late an the walking is going good the reading has yet to happen, so here I go. And until next time I'll be Discovering Me!
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Week One
So it was one week ago today that i decided to start this blog, it feels like it has been much longer than that. So last weekend i gave myself my first goal, to walk around my block everyday. Well this goal kinda took on a life of it's own. From my other posts you know that what was supposed to be my block turned in to the park, the waterfront, and the whole neighborhood. I do have to admit that i didn't achieve my goal of walking everyday this week, I missed walking on Thursday this week. I could not bring myself to get out there and walk after a 12 hour day at work. I was so disappointed in myself that i ended up walking twice on Friday once while at work i took my 15 min break and walked around the building then when i got home we walked around the waterfront. My plan was to just start with walking around my block that would take about 6 mins every night, what it has become is a 30min walk with my boys. The first night when i was done walking i was winded and my legs felt like jelly, the second night i was wined and my legs burned, now i am felling good and am slowly feeling like i could push myself a little more. Slowly i will start to find ways to make it a little more work.
A new week is starting so i guess it's time to set another goal, this weeks goal is to continue walking every night for at least 30mins, and to read before bed. I used to read every night before i went to sleep it was something i really enjoyed doing and somewhere along the line i stopped doing it. I don't know when really or why i stopped but it's time for me to get back to the simple things that i enjoy. We shall see what this week holds for me so until next time I'll be Discovering Me!
A new week is starting so i guess it's time to set another goal, this weeks goal is to continue walking every night for at least 30mins, and to read before bed. I used to read every night before i went to sleep it was something i really enjoyed doing and somewhere along the line i stopped doing it. I don't know when really or why i stopped but it's time for me to get back to the simple things that i enjoy. We shall see what this week holds for me so until next time I'll be Discovering Me!
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
My boys
Five, that is the time I am scheduled to get off work.... that time seems to come and go while I am still working away to complete the days tasks. 6:30 that is the average time I get off work. You know I love the overtime pay don't get me wrong what bothers me is that fact that I get to work before my boss and leave after him on a daily basis and he doesn't even bother to ask if i need a hand before he goes. Is it really to much to ask for a little support sometimes. I have to keep reminding myself that this job is my stepping stone to bigger and better things. But while I am there I can't let it bring me down.
Tonight when I left at 6:20 I was thinking about how nice my walk was going to be even though it's freezing outside. That was until I got to the door and found it raining out there. Really I guess that someone is testing me or allowing me to test myself. So I walk to my car thinking how can i convince myself that skipping tonight's walk would be okay..... that didn't happen (wow I'm holding myself accountable for my goals). As I'm driving home I'm thinking it's just a little water it's not like I'm the wicked witch of the west and am going to melt.... so by the time I hit my door I know that no matter what I am walking tonight. You know a week ago the rain would have made me curl up on the couch and say I don't need to walk tonight you can do it another day. I'm not sure what my aha moment was but I think I had one somewhere.
So I cook dinner and everyone eats and go and change out of my work clothes. While I was putting on my shoes Phil and Damien start turning off the lights and the TV. To my surprise my boys are going with me. I didn't even bring it up to them in the past when I have asked or talked to them about walking it's been nothing they wanted to do. But tonight with out a word we all left the house. It was not as cold tonight... We walked along the waterfront to the boat launch and back down to main street. In all it was 30 mins of walking and talking as a family. When we got home Damien looks at me and says "Mom that was fun we need to do it more often". I think this goal will be pretty easy to achieve even more now that my support system is building. Well I have gone on and no tonight so until next time I will be Discovering Me!
Tonight when I left at 6:20 I was thinking about how nice my walk was going to be even though it's freezing outside. That was until I got to the door and found it raining out there. Really I guess that someone is testing me or allowing me to test myself. So I walk to my car thinking how can i convince myself that skipping tonight's walk would be okay..... that didn't happen (wow I'm holding myself accountable for my goals). As I'm driving home I'm thinking it's just a little water it's not like I'm the wicked witch of the west and am going to melt.... so by the time I hit my door I know that no matter what I am walking tonight. You know a week ago the rain would have made me curl up on the couch and say I don't need to walk tonight you can do it another day. I'm not sure what my aha moment was but I think I had one somewhere.
So I cook dinner and everyone eats and go and change out of my work clothes. While I was putting on my shoes Phil and Damien start turning off the lights and the TV. To my surprise my boys are going with me. I didn't even bring it up to them in the past when I have asked or talked to them about walking it's been nothing they wanted to do. But tonight with out a word we all left the house. It was not as cold tonight... We walked along the waterfront to the boat launch and back down to main street. In all it was 30 mins of walking and talking as a family. When we got home Damien looks at me and says "Mom that was fun we need to do it more often". I think this goal will be pretty easy to achieve even more now that my support system is building. Well I have gone on and no tonight so until next time I will be Discovering Me!
Monday, January 10, 2011
Burrr..... It's cold
Last night when I was all warm and cozy on the couch, walking around my block everyday was a wonderful idea. Tonight as I was walking around the park (my son had Karate) in the 36 degree weather it didn't seem like that bright of an idea. In the first 20 steps I wanted to say nevermind I don't really need to do this right now it can wait. But I know just as well as anyone that is not the truth. You know while I was walking around that large green Field I realized something, the only one holding me back is ME.
For so long I have been telling myself that I need someone to go with me to be able to walk or exercise at all. Tonight I proved myself wrong! Me and my Ipod did just fine.... It was so good that I ended up walking around the park 2 times. It's funny to me how much that little voice talks to me about why I should be doing things but I never listen to it. Well I guess I'm listening now wonder what the next thing it tells me to do will be. So one night down lets see how the rest of the week goes. I'll keep you all posted until next time I'll be Discovering Me!
For so long I have been telling myself that I need someone to go with me to be able to walk or exercise at all. Tonight I proved myself wrong! Me and my Ipod did just fine.... It was so good that I ended up walking around the park 2 times. It's funny to me how much that little voice talks to me about why I should be doing things but I never listen to it. Well I guess I'm listening now wonder what the next thing it tells me to do will be. So one night down lets see how the rest of the week goes. I'll keep you all posted until next time I'll be Discovering Me!
Sunday, January 9, 2011
So this is the beginning
Here I am laying on couch wondering why exactly am I writing this? Do I really want to post my thoughts and feelings out in cyber space for anyone to find? Well since the words keep coming I guess the answer is YES.
So I'm not sure if it's just me or if everyone has that voice in your head.. it's like a running conversation with yourself, well mine has been talking on over drive lately, and it has me wondering what I truly want in life. I have been questioning if I am truly happy, or if i am just really good a faking it. Now i don't want everyone freaking out I'm not depressed or anything just reflecting my own thoughts. So with my reflection i am going to start making some little changes to help prove that happiness is what i make it.
I am about a month away from turning 29 and think that there are so many things I should have been able to do and haven't. I guess that is just another thing that proves the choices we make today directly affect our future. Isn't if funny how hindsight is 20/20. Well because its pretty close to the beginning of the year i guess this is a good time to make my first goal for change. I have never been a skinny person, and when i think about it i don't know that i would ever want to ACTRESS SKINNY. But I do want to be healthy so my first goal for change is to walk around my block every night for a week. Small changes and little goals that is how I am thinking about this. Not a diet or any crazy workout schedule just something small and non threatening to work on. Things to help me physically and mentally.
I will try to post weekly and let you know how my goal went and what the next one is thanks for reading and hope I didn't bore you to death until next time I'll be Discovering me!
So I'm not sure if it's just me or if everyone has that voice in your head.. it's like a running conversation with yourself, well mine has been talking on over drive lately, and it has me wondering what I truly want in life. I have been questioning if I am truly happy, or if i am just really good a faking it. Now i don't want everyone freaking out I'm not depressed or anything just reflecting my own thoughts. So with my reflection i am going to start making some little changes to help prove that happiness is what i make it.
I am about a month away from turning 29 and think that there are so many things I should have been able to do and haven't. I guess that is just another thing that proves the choices we make today directly affect our future. Isn't if funny how hindsight is 20/20. Well because its pretty close to the beginning of the year i guess this is a good time to make my first goal for change. I have never been a skinny person, and when i think about it i don't know that i would ever want to ACTRESS SKINNY. But I do want to be healthy so my first goal for change is to walk around my block every night for a week. Small changes and little goals that is how I am thinking about this. Not a diet or any crazy workout schedule just something small and non threatening to work on. Things to help me physically and mentally.
I will try to post weekly and let you know how my goal went and what the next one is thanks for reading and hope I didn't bore you to death until next time I'll be Discovering me!
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